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Personally, I got to a point where I saw that I could go forward with the enlightenment of Orthodoxy, or I could go back to the Christianity of my upbringing. I'd have remained a Christian, but I knew if I passed this up I'd be dooming myself to a meagre existence for passing up such a brilliant illumination.

The door opens and you enter or you don't. Sometimes when you don't you lose something. But, if you lose something, God uses that, too. God is the perpetual suitor, loving us, wooing us, and drawing us to Him if only we will respond. Having an official association with a specific group means nothing if the heart isn't in it. Are you willing to nibble at Orthodoxy from a distance?

That said, from my own experience I would maybe suggest taking your time and try to come to Orthodoxy because of Orthodox, because you're in love with the Church, than because of any ill feelings about where you came from.